Rebirth
Author: crasiezt
What is love? Friendship, commitment, trust, loyalty…all of it…and more? Have I experienced it? Yes! Did I like it? Loved it! But what did I get in return? A bouquet of fakeness, pain, tears, doubts, anxiety…good moments too, but the negative overshadowed the plus points…
Moral of the story: give yourself completely, but don’t trust someone blindly. ‘Cause when there is light and you see the real picture it hurts so much, you never wanna open your eyes again.
But how long can you shut your eyes? You open them one day. And that’s when you realize there’s more to the world than some moronic loser who was humping other babes behind your back, assuming you’ll never find out! Your friends are around, your family’s there for you, and most importantly, you’re a stronger and much sensible person now. You make new friends, cutting strings with those you don’t want in your life. You relearn how to have fun without alcohol running through your veins; you discover the sheer joy of just lying in someone’s arms…
Moral of the story: give yourself completely, but don’t trust someone blindly. ‘Cause when there is light and you see the real picture it hurts so much, you never wanna open your eyes again.
But how long can you shut your eyes? You open them one day. And that’s when you realize there’s more to the world than some moronic loser who was humping other babes behind your back, assuming you’ll never find out! Your friends are around, your family’s there for you, and most importantly, you’re a stronger and much sensible person now. You make new friends, cutting strings with those you don’t want in your life. You relearn how to have fun without alcohol running through your veins; you discover the sheer joy of just lying in someone’s arms…
You understand the importance of emotions, and the fact that they’re really precious to be wasted on just about anybody. You wonder if being “cool” and “dude” like is important, or is being “nice” more essential.
The mind plays games with you like never before, throwing up surprises and puzzles at you so randomly that you have no time to analyze your thoughts and actions. But still, take some time out and ponder. You’ll see how happy, relaxed and comfortable you are just being yourself. No pretence. No lying. No hiding. No fury. No angst…just you and a huge bucket of happiness. Peace!
sweetheart u still obsessed with the guy kya?? chod usse aur aage badh... the guy doest deserve so much footage on your blog and or that matter ur mindspace :)
Arreh no way..that's what I've written..am happy without that scumbag in my life:-)
eggjhactly
waise bhi mere jaisse eligible bachelor ke rehte tu idhar udhar sochti bhi kyu hai mujhe samajh main nai aata ;)
Hahaha nice try:P
:)...dont knw much abt ur past bt it seems ur luv life got a rude shock nt so long bck nd u r yet to recover frm it...move on yaar...some ppl dont deserve undue publicity nd moreovr life hs so much more to offer...cheer up nd look at d brighter side of things...aur haan tension lene ka nahi sirf dene ka :)
Tension kahan liya beedu..all my heartache is history. Am a happy soul now:-)
:)...rily...bt u hardly smile yaar...d luk on ya face s always tensed...woh kehte hain na 'hasne ke paise nahi padte'...to thoda has liya karo kabhi kabhi :)...waise did u figure out who i am ?? ;)
must say neha...i wanted you to somehow write this piece since long...i would not say this at the risk of offending your other blogs..but somehow I wanted this a lot.And what i liked is the realisation that being 'cool' is actually so uncool before being essentially 'nice'..now that's what I call cool!!
way to go...love your blog!!!
Sam are you like stalking me now;-)
Nope, no idea who you are..but dunno what made you say I look "tensed"
Litun girl, I dunno why this came so late. All a part of growing up perhaps!!
Thanks Geet!!
Nice nice :D
haha...d idea isn't bad waise ;)...but I wont do dat by lettin evryone knw wud I ??...nd ya d tense luk s definitely der...may b u stll adjustin to d nw wrk env :)...chillax...btw ek chota sa hint on d "figurin out" part...dont go by d pic...thoda purana hai :)...happy huntin :)
Gonecase is that all you can say??? I thought you liked the post:-(
Asshole would be an understatement Snigdha:D
I was done with the crying ages ago. No more tears now:-)
Ofcourse, I loved it. Its undoubtedly the best write from your side I have read till date. Its way too mature than I thought you are and I am delighted to see this side of yours :-)
Keep the delight coming baby:-)
awwww... that's sheer disgruntled molly coddle :)
A friend of mine once wrote: "THE BEST WAY TO INSULT A PERSON IS TO STOP WRITING ABOUT HER/HIM"
You'll get over it; just a matter of time!
That's in your hands to keep it coming baby :P
Keep up the good work, hehehe
Hint taken Sweekar!
In my hands?? I don't think so:P
What !! You want me to get into the nitty-gritty of it here :P
Damn it Gonecase you didn't get it
Get a room, you two :P
Uff ! Got it Crazy, was trying to change the context :P
@Sweekar: We have a room too, hehehe
Here is an excerpt that you might remember" I dreamt of something beautiful not so long ago with my fellow traveller.
Of making Sand Castles together, Of Looking into those shimmering eyes, Of sipping on margaritas while watching the sun set over the horizon...
Khwaab tha shayad, Khwaab hi hoga... Sapne to humne bhi bune thhey hazaroon, bus humsafar ne hi saath chod diya...
In Memory of my fellow traveller
- The Traveller
Whatever happens, happens for a reason. Whatever happens, happens for good(what the fuck, i am smiling myslef), bottom line every body at some point of time has been screwd in life (only the unlucky ones dont get, or they are lucky or whatever fuck)
words don't heal, they just give you temporary relief..
welcome to the club freak
Everyone's going to hurt you sooner or later. You just have to decide who's worth going through the pain.--Not mine
(I should stop watching these stupid Hollywood flicks :D)
Saurabh...what do I say..just get over it man!!
Chachaji!! "...words don't heal, they just give you temporary relief.." loved that line. But must say there is joy in being fucked too..lol
No Sweekar you should watch them even more and use their lines on my blog:P
this is louveeeee talking...
Who me ???
Looks like you are the one obsessed with your ol' flame which burnt you completely..
Good Luck in your travels though....
"Cause when there is light and you see the real picture it hurts so much, you never wanna open your eyes again"
but some1 like me gets used to such pictures around me, that i've started living with these pictures.. with the thot that the world is full of such stupid idiotic ppl.. :)
nice post...
Merry christmas
Saurabh you've completely lost it! Me obsessed with him?? Ha! Read the post again..I'm talking about how I'm over him. Burnt yes, but only a little bit. Healed now. And travelling on. Moving on to nicer things and nicer people..
Yupp Drozzy that's love..it fades for some time, but resurfaces pretty soon..the only difference is that the object of your love may have changed:D
Merry Christmas to you too Rohit:-)
merrry christmas freak..
Nice :) I like the last para a lot.Makes absolute sense...you are blogrolled :D
hogwash
I will be honest with you.
A) The fact that you first wrote about your Boy friend in your blog venting your anger on him by describing his philandering ways, shows you as an insecure person.
B)The fact that 3 months after the break up you still want to write about the mental trauma and how it made you strong and all the "Rebirth" thing is again nothing but a self-obsessed freak who wants to blow her trumpet
C) The fact that when I posted anonymously you promptly mentioned my name, shows your insensitivity towards a situation
People who comment on your post are either in awe of you or or do not have a clue about your personality.
There is a big difference arrogance and humility,
I sincerely wish you find that out one day, rather than make a mockery of yourself and your deepest emotions in a public domain
hey craz...u hv done the bravest part by letting out ur emotions n sharing with who's who...i must say this is the biggest fear of anybody(like saurabh) to speak abt urself in public... i stand for u. and as i told u before "way to go"...
p.s. sorry donno want to make a scene but couldnt not resist after seeing saurabh's comment.
A day late, but merry xmas to you too Chacha!!
Skeeeeeeeeeeeeeety:D
Saw myself on your page..thanks:-)
You liked what I wrote..mmmmmmuah for that:-) *Am delirious with fever, so please ignore my madness
Anonymous, you think this is nonsense ?? Well, this nonsense did make sense to me and a lot of other people as well:-)
Saurabh you really amaze me. Exactly why are you spewing poison huh?
I can answer all your questions in a jiffy. But ummm well are you worth it? Naaaah I have better things to do. And anyways, loveyourself has pretty much replied to your crap.
Hey loveyourself! Dunno about the brave bit, but yes that's how I feel. Thanks for standing up for me and punching losers in their face!
Hmm..read it. Will call you.
Love,
Princess Diana
hehe crazy girl :D
:) silly girl
Princess Diana???*snort
well well.. m late bt still would again comment.. it's easier said than done.. m sure crasiezt you've come over all this long back, and ur living ur life in the best possible way you can...
there are moments in life, you just wanna forget, there are ppl u just wanna forget.. each moment teaches you something in life..
bt i appreciate that ur happy now..and for ever till the time u are.. happiness doesn't last for long (not for me atleast) .. :) , i hope that for u it lasts for ever..
Keep blogging..!!! cheers...
Well Rohit, there are things we would want to forget, but the harder you try, the worse it gets. The way out is to make peace with those bitter memories and go on with your life:-)
Don't forget, but don't forgive either!
Correct!
"Forgive and forget" is a pretty redundant statement if you think about it!
So we do agree on something:D