WHY????

Author: crasiezt


Why does NOW remind me of THEN?
Do I LIKE getting hurt?
Do other people hurt me?
Or do I do it to myself?

I’m rubbing away tears of blood.
Stalling the dreaded agony.
Waiting for something to happen…

My heart’s aching like it did earlier.
My soul’s pained like before.
My very existence seems flimsy.
I feel like a cloud…
Blown away into nothingness.

Why does every dream have to end in a nightmare?

PS: My most pathetic post ever. But had to get that out of my system, though am not sure if it’s making me feel any better.


 

24 Responses to “WHY????”

  1. Ankur Arora

    Scary picture that one! :)
    Wanted to quote something from one of my favourite songs. Maybe this does the trick for you, hopefully!

    But I know I must go on
    Although I hurt I must be strong
    Because inside I know that many feel this way

    Children don’t stop dancing
    Believe you can fly
    Away…away


    If you get a chance to, do listen to the song. It's "Don't stop dancing" by Creed.

    As for the hurt, it's good that you still "feel"!


  2. Gunjan Aylawadi

    hey wat happnd to u??
    this is so not u :(

    i hope ure ok nw!!


  3. Reeta Skeeter

    Ooooooh scary pic that one!
    How do you ever manage those!
    Well it is always good to get it out of the system and what better way than write...blog..whatever :D
    Cheers!
    Be happy!


  4. Satanic Angel

    purge it out and enjoy the catharsis..and if u still aren't ok, have some isabgol :D


  5. Keshi

    Its not pathetic sweetie..it's real. Its how u feel/felt. So Im glad u wrote abt it. we r all human after all. And by expressing ur deepest thoughts this way, u learn to cope with em and eventually get over em.

    HUGS!

    Keshi.


  6. Anonymous

    oye eh ki hoeya?

    are you feeling any better now?i agree with keshi's comment. if at all u not feelin better, then go ahead and write again,share with frnd,strangers(i have tried this on myself,trust me) till you feel that this was so silly n undeserving!!

    you know, mein kissi bhi rah chalte student ya bande ko pakad kar apni story sunaati thi(with emotions)aur 5-6 times sunnane ke baad ,i would laugh on my story ,sochker ki kitta time waste kiya isper...it works.

    basically you need a tight hug.its okay babe.


  7. Sweekar

    for some strange reason, I think I know exactly how you feel...


  8. crasiezt

    Hey everyone!
    I guess we all have our "moments"..Mine was yesterday. But am done with it. Am as happy as happy can be...Got all the love hugs kisses I deserve...and more:-)
    Mmmmmmuah to all of you for writing in..really means a lot:-)

    PS: The pic is scary yes, but I so love it!!


  9. kinu

    you are a huge bundle of self-pity. and self-pity or not, you seem obsessed with yourself and how! get a life woman!


  10. ash

    WTF???


  11. Anonymous

    jhandu *in ur lang* tu bach gayi otherwise i would have pakofied you more with all the life's philosophy.

    more kisses on its way 4 ju!!!


  12. crasiezt

    Kinu: That was so fuckin rude! Am not asking for your sympathy mate, but this was totally uncalled for.

    Ashish: Ummm do I know you???


  13. crasiezt

    Geet: Hehehe..I swear bach gayi main:P
    Loads of kisses to you too babe:-)


  14. crasiezt

    Chacha: Am back in Blore now.

    I thought it was over..but nope it ain't. Some things have the habit of becoming perfectly alright for a while..then they come back to you worse than ever!! There's one beacon of hope though..I know it will be OK in the end:-)


  15. kinu

    no comments. objectivity gone for a day out? may be a month or so.... or forever?


  16. crasiezt

    Kinu I really hope it ain't gone forever!!


  17. kinu

    good. it needs to come back now


  18. Rendezvous

    i suppose ending of dreams are totally in our hands.. shayad totally toh nahi, bt then kaafi hadh tak...

    newaz, hp u are out of that state of mind now.. i could again connect with this one, coz almost each evening i m in this state of mind :)

    Lovely picture, my fav till date i suppose...

    -R


  19. crasiezt

    Rohit: You bet the pic is awesome! And yes am out of that state of mind..was only for a day..am back to spreading the madness around:D


  20. Phinzy

    Nehaaa girllllllll.... aaah after like 2 months ki read ur blog.... hmm guess i'm missing stuff happening at ur end [;)] .. will call u up sometime,... me having a blast in Florida.... aah ....i cant believe u r still wid Bangalore.. anaywyas ....u having fun ... thts all da more imp...

    keep in touch girl and take care,
    Phanee


  21. Phinzy

    also i lovvvvvvvvve the PIC..

    done wid muah new script .. FIRDAUS, story of a child-suicide bomber.... as of now started to finalise on the concept of da next one LEHEK ... u will boot me down if i say i'm taking a leaf out of ur persona for one of da characters... intriguingly maverick ;)


  22. crasiezt

    Phanee: Wow man..loads of stuff happening in your life!


  23. Phinzy

    hmmmm u can say so... but not too much of zing to it..you keep me posted abt teh "stuff" happening at ur end ;) feels so gud 2 read u so happyyyyyy


  24. crasiezt

    Am happy yes, but this post was written at a time when I was fucking upset..passing phase though..am on top of the world once more:-)Read my latest post if you have the time


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